mise en scene, pt. 2

You are what you wanted to be. You wanted to be nice, and be able to enjoy life and live a little a dangerously. You had no care if you got a shitty office job or not. You would meet new people and you would still talk to your friends in high school without being stuck in high school. Everything else that made you worry or upset or be sad or paralyzed you, all of that was based out of necessity. Necessity to live, necessity to survive; food, shelter, etc. You were stupid and romantic and now you're less stupid and less romantic but you're still both. The expectations of what you should be did not correlate with what you wanted to be, this is what it wrought. This is it.